10:42am – day 6 of our project implementation and i’m slowly picking up the pace. now i’m able to interact well with our consultants and clients. but wait! there’s more! – i’ve solved a couple of problems – big ones. haha. i think i’m almost (yes, almost) back to my usual self. thanks to my daily med and my positive attitude. seriously, an apple a day is seven apples a week

12:15pm – i’m anxiously waiting for my brand new laptop. it’s like ages already. i find it hard to understand why an ordered item, tagged as urgent,  would come in 2 weeks late??? dear supplier, speed up the delivery please? i’ve got tons of paperworks waiting to be done here. (hmm what about shooting an angry memo at our purchaser)

1:34pm – it took me less than 10 seconds to fill up my application form for my company’s 20th anniversary fun run event. i’m running 20-k this time with full conviction to finish it notwithstanding that little pain on my left rib cage. so help me God.

2:01pm – i think God wants me to run…i just received a text message from gintherese, my churchmate, about the lineup for the upcoming concert at brokenshire college gym and due to limited band size they’ve chosen jun to work on the keyboard. the concert is on feb. 18, saturday – the same day i’ll do a 20-km run.

2:59pm – why i’m thinkin’ about a pitcher of kopi luwak right now???

3:21pm – spent 30 minutes over the phone with my on-call developer. we’re fixing a stupid (if i may say so because it keeps on coming back, ugh!) syntax error on SAP B1 custom app.

4:23pm – i feel like weekend’s coming already. why’s that?

4:30pm – verse of the day, (NIV) Psalm 86:5 - You, Lord, are forgiving and good, abounding in love to all who call to You. i’m thinking hard right now…wishing i have the innocence of a 5-year-old boy.

4:55pm – three-in-one coffee must i drink. listening to a track from ne-yo.

5:16pm – caught myself staring blankly at the wall on my right. oh no! PTSD attack.

5:43pm – i think my laptop will be delivered tomorrow. maybe our supplier will run out of excuses already.

so 28 days after my accident:

i’m back to work…this means, i’m gonna’ finish what i’ve started – my project, that is.

there’s still pain in my left TBC (thoracic bony cage) but a couple of x-ray results confirm that they’re intact and i won’t worry about fractures and sorts. maybe the pain is caused by the trauma. well, time will heal (…)

still there’s swelling on my left cheek. a little noticeable. but it’s not painful anymore. i just couldn’t smile like i used to but i guess this won’t be long.

bruises on my chest and my legs are gone.

i’ve been seeing my psychologist lately and i was given an antidepressant med. i’m not really that depressed nor stressed, well, maybe the first few days i was restless but after that i was able to cope up. but then i still have to take it according to my doc. so i did for like a week already. my initial reactions after taking the pill – dizziness; i get easily distracted and a little paranoid. just a while ago i met with him again and i told him about what i felt. i couldn’t believe what he said to me – that’s normal. (hahaha) well, he’s the doc. i’m just a patient. maybe he’s right.

so i have to take the pills for 20 days more.

do i need to write about this 28 weeks later?

Snake zodiac people is having mutual producing with Grand Duke in term of fire produce earth logic. Therefore, this will help you gain confidence and find your directions in life. You should not become conceited and must grab this opportunity to develop yourself with good foundation for the upcoming challenges next year. With the lonesome star, you will tend to be flaunting and offending others and you might risk being ostracized. Thus, keep a low profile and be humble before you lose those benefactors. Your fixed income is stable this year but you still need to control those unnecessary expenditures. You must not be greedy but be mindful when you have a chance for joint venture or investment. With the inauspicious Prison star, you should not perform any illegal activities to gain financial windfall as that will lead to wealth loss or getting into lawsuits. With the Sickness star, your immune system will be weaker and easily to fall sick. Seek medical support early. Adopt a healthier lifestyle by doing regular exercise and balance diet to strengthen your body. Mutual understanding and tolerance is the best strategy to improve your relationship this year and avoid potential loneliness due to a breakup.

Wealth: Although there is direct wealth available this year, but there are chances that money will be used easily as well and hardly can be saved. Thus you should have managed your wealth wisely. Avoid gambling or any financial speculations as your indirect wealth luck is just average. Do not show off your wealth as it might attract villains, thieves and lead to wealth loss. You will have better wealth luck for investment during Autumn, but bear in mind to have better self control and not over greedy.

Career: Grand Duke is protecting you this year due to mutual producing effects between earthly branches. If you could focus on your job and stay down to earth, you will attain success in all matters. However, you must be careful of Prison star and do not make stupid decision to involve in any illegal activities just because want to gain fast returns. Stay alert to avoid committing errors. Employees should control your emotions to reduce ill luck.

Love: Love fortune is pretty weak this year. Do not rush into a relationship recklessly. Avoid getting suspicious over minor matters that create trust issues within couples. Must learn how to tolerate and improve communication to maintain healthier and happier relationship. Be mindful of handling relationship carefully and stay cool in the second, third and sixth of Chinese lunar month.

Health: You should be extra cautious of your health this year due to the attendance of Sickness star. Your body will be more vulnerable and easily suffering from common cold, flu or any contagious illness, especially in the first, fourth and tenth of Chinese lunar month. Avoid taking raw and cold food, having regular exercises, sufficient and early sleep. Pay more attention to your health and safety and be careful when driving or exercising to avoid accidents.

- reaction -

too late, i already met an accident earlier this year

i survived this accident last 3rd of january. sad to say i lost a friend here.

it could’ve been me. but i still woke up. alive. no major damages

except for bruised rib cage, cheek, chest and left leg.

all i could say is ‘amazing’

God is amazing.

‘St. Swithin’s day if thou dost rain
For forty days it will remain
St. Swithin’s day if thou be fair
For forty days ’twill rain nae mair.’

a very famous weather-rhyme in england that talks about the 15th day of july.

the very same line dexter (jim sturgess) told em (anne hathaway) while they were cuddling in bed after their graduation day from the movie ‘one day’.

after watching the film i, sort of, paused. never felt sad in my entire life after watching a movie. this one just did.

]]> http://sanctuaryofmyreflections.wordpress.com/2011/12/10/st-swithins-day/feed/ 0 Yong http://sanctuaryofmyreflections.wordpress.com/2011/12/05/just-wishes/ http://sanctuaryofmyreflections.wordpress.com/2011/12/05/just-wishes/#comments Mon, 05 Dec 2011 09:18:40 +0000 dang3rz0n3 http://sanctuaryofmyreflections.wordpress.com/?p=695 ]]> as a kid, i used to fancy a lot of things before christmas i’d imagine them and write them at the back page of my favorite notebook. i do this either first or second week of december then after i write everything i pray to God and i used to say i’ll try to be a good kid if i get one. guess what? i don’t get them. i get different things instead. but i don’t get upset…they’re just ‘wishes’ after all.

last year i wished a lot of things and i got a few of them…and for some reasons, i’ve lost most of them, too. it’s kinda’ sad to lose something but i always remember – they’re just simple wishes that came true. i’d always think they were borrowed stuffs and if it ain’t gonna’ stay in your porch for more than a year then it isn’t really for you. period. then its time to move on.

anyway, here goes for nothin

first on my list is an Apple iPhone 4. it’s an awesome 8gb phone. i originally wished iPhone 3Gs or an iPod touch. either way i can store my tons of music and video files. it supports h.264 and 720p video formats with a 5-megapixel camera. perfect for quick photos and impromptu video recording.

this is my second wish, a 16Gb Blackberry Playbook. my ex-officemate have one like this and it’s features are great. for me this is better than Apple iPad 2.0. it’s video and audio outputs are superb. allows me to play MP4 and AVI formats. it has a built-in NFS undercover game.

its blackberry bridge application allows me to connect my 8520 curve and use it’s phone features on to it.

third in my list is a Beats by Dre Studio headset. it fits well with the Apple iPhone 4 or Blackberry Playbook and of course, my good old – 1Gb Apple iPod shuffle. hahaha! it works well with my 8520 curve, too.

a full suspension downhill mountain bike. not exactly as seen in the picture but it must be set up to look that way. harhar! and of course, as i used to, i’ll be the one to set it up. this kickass bike should have a fat bar, a 3.0 to 3.2 sized kenda tires, 8-inch front and rear disk brakes, truvativ cranks, rock shox boxxer stem, and XT shifters. this is wish number four.

last on my list is the newest Adidas Adizero Rose 2.0 mid-cut basketball shoes. need i say more? well, i thought earlier about the latest Nike Lebron and Kobe 8 but again, they’re Nike and my feet’s allergic to it. hehe.

like i said, these are wishes…they are wants. looking at these pictures in my blog satisfies my craving already. hehe.

have a merry wishin everyone.

I wanna believe
But I’m having a hard time seeing past what I see right now, I see right now
I wanna be free
But when I try to fly I realize I don’t know how, no one showed me how
Wish I could see that this mess I’m in will really work out for my good, you said it would
So, if you can hear me, can you give me a sign cause I don’t feel you like I should, please if you could
My faith is almost gone, I can’t hold on much longer, take this cup from me

Help me Believe
Can I believe
Let Me believe
I wanna believe
I’m no good on my own, please give me another chance
It’s hard to believe in what I can’t see
To give you my will cause you’re what’s better for me
You can look in my eyes and see I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

(I want you to know)
I wanna believe
If I never hear I’m sorry I can let it go, gotta let you go
Cause, it’s killing me. Jesus you know how it feels cause you’ve been hurt before, don’t wanna hurt no more
I’m trying to hear you speak, but my heart is growing weaker, take this cup from me

Help me Believe
Can I Believe
Let me Believe
I wanna Believe
I’ve been here before and can’t take that hurt again
It’s hard to believe in what I can’t see
To give you my will cause you’re what’s better for me
You can look in my eyes and see I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

Believe
Believe

I wanna believe when I close my eyes on this side I’ll wake up with you, more in love with you
And, and finally, you will say my race it is over and my work is through, cause I believed in you
I know dark nights will come and some days there’ll be no sunshine and you’re too far to see

Help me Believe
Can I believe
Let Me believe
I wanna believe
I’m no good on my own, please give me another chance
It’s hard to believe in what I can’t see
To give you my will cause you’re what’s better for me
You can look in my eyes and see I wanna believe, believe, believe, believe

i watched the live ppv of manny pacquiao’s fight with one of his greatest nemesis – juan manuel marquez and seriously i was sitting at the edge of my seat the whole time. i mean, there’s no determining who’d win the fight. both of them were throwing punches and landing heavy blows and it’s only a matter of time before any one of them would either throw his face or land his butt on the floor.

both of them were exceptionally great except for a few things during and after the fight

take a note of these figures and events:

during the game:

OVERALL

Pacquiao = 578 punches connecting 176
Marquez= 436 punches connecting 138

JABS

Pacquiao = 304 jabs connecting 59
Marquez = 182 jabs connecting 38.

POWER PUNCHES

Pacquiao = 274 power punches connecting 117
Marquez = 254 power punches connecting100

After ROUND 12,

Marquez PRAISED himself while
Pacquiao went to a corner, knelt down and PRAYED.

The VERDICT:

PACQUIAO WON!

did you see why?

watching him speak like this at the very young age of 12 and with the full understanding of life after death i felt amazed and at the same time ashamed of myself.

he had a total grasp of what Christianity is all about where many at 30, 40 and even 60 year-old couldn’t even understand.

thanks garvan, you are indeed a blessing to the world most especially in these days where many people are needed to be saved.

now i have another chapter to add to my son’s future lessons in life.